AUTISTIC LINCS: Revival Of Narratives
Hello there! Callum Brazzo here, continuing to make Autistic Lincs.
All right guys, bear with me.
I am sat here at my mum's place after indulging in a meal of eggs, potatoes and toast, pondering the week, and I am drawn to the theme of revival.
I've made no secret through my poetry about the relationship I had and now have with my mum, and it feels wasted to bring it all up again, but really what I'm focussing on is a broader view of who I am now and who I can become. Because I do not believe in God or any god but I write today on this beautifully sunny afternoon and I think to myself that I have come so far.
And recent events have meant that I am putting my entire life in perspective. yet again. Let me explain.
For a little while now, maybe a month, I have parted ways with my girlfriend of four years.
I currently have a flat all to myself which I have renovated and look forward to having many nights in alone and with anyone else that enters my life. The 'natural drift' as I have described in a poem, of course, was amicable and we both know that each of us need to find new life paths.
We support each other. That won't change.
But I had changed long before I met her.
I have been through depression, anxieties that had me housebound and riddled with stress, trying to find my life path as an autistic man living in a world that seemed unwelcoming of my autistic nature.
So I can change again.
Going through these changes meant that I have needed some time to myself and FOR myself.
I missed two events this week due to this necessary time.
I should not regret it because without helping myself, how can I help others?
I am not overwhelmed with sadness at the thought of my ex-girlfriend moving on in a different direction but I am overjoyed to see her thrive, currently, and in the future as I know she will.
I wonder about memories. Of her. Of us.
How will I be remembered?
I have been thinking recently about how my life pretty much revolves around doing things for others.
Sorry if this column is rather jumbled but doesn't that accurately reflect life sometimes?
I would say that I'm ending this now...but the truth is that we are just beginning.
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Ciao for now!